Unreal to see, to feel, to be.
Aplace myself floating on the waves of time.
Running to catch Eternity, but always one step behind.
Reading arcane truths, misspelled for an aging humanity.
Unveiled mysteries lying around, to be ignored in favor of ephemeral dreams.
A circle, a barrier, a line to the edge of conscience, all lays on a vision seeded in perceptual shadows.
Frozen dreams, shards of memories, butterfly effects laying waste to encroaching Shadowrealms.
Who am I? …
Deep silence inside, misplaced, un-judgement of a life vortex.
I look behind, but dream ahead, I breath the Light and embrace the Dark.
A Raven flight over green fields, a Dragon’s breath under an infinite sky, no words to describe the fields of Life.
Who am I?…
Dreaming or being dreamed.
There was only darkness around. It was safe. The usual night.
And then the dream bloomed. A city, some city, no name, no identity. Tall buildings, no souls around.
I ascend, the wonderful sensation of flying through space, by mind alone.
And then I look at my hands … and I smile. I became Aware and Present. I fly with speed through the Dark City. I watch the dark sky and then my hands again. Descending to the ground, the wonder of the silvery light fills me.
I walk and I see strange gardens with dark flowers. Looking around yellow lights follow me… and I still wonder that I have so much energy to sustain the flight and the Awareness.
On a glimpse a dark tall building appears, like a mausoleum, made of dark granite, like an old castle. I fly to the top and then the energy starts dropping… With a last effort I manage to grab the ledge and get myself up on the roof.
Looking around I see only Fog.
Anomaly is evolution.
Breaking the boundaries is evolution.
Making the leap beyond the edge is the only way to break free.
Just before waking up.
I’m in the city of my childhood. I walk amongst people and places. And then I throw myself in the air. Not high, a few feet above ground. And then I fly again. Not many details but a lot of people. I swing through them like a bee. I descend into craters and disasters. There is light but also darkness. There is just the drive, the speed, the unlimited joy of flying.
It is happening. Not always, but from time to time.
A glimpse, that is. A door that opens.
I find myself on the edge of something. Something which I cannot really put into words, just metaphors. It’s like sitting on an edge. An edge of something. Something like a great ocean, or a great cascade of silence. A vast view of nothing to remember, a great pause of all I know. Let’s name it Nagual or … whatever. It doesn’t matter the name, just the impact. I just sit there and See. The Great Divide. Just being. Samsara and the Unknown, face to face. I’m not split at that moment, I’m just the Observer. The feeling transcends all feelings or thoughts. Because there are none. The mill has stopped. Infinity is stalking me…
The moment has enough power to shake me. A glimpse of … what I cannot really describe. It’s magic, beyond words and yet… the road unfolds ahead.
After a while the train of thoughts starts marching again.
But I remember.
And I will Hunt and I will return. I will Stalk the self, I will Hunt the I and then the Dream will unfold again.
I sleep as one and dream as many.
I wake between the dreams and each time it’s a different facet of my inner reality.
The dreams rotate and take me to many realms.
Still I remain … the same.
A life to live, a dream to dream, a song to listen. And then I’ll dance, oh yes I will.
A dark chant in my heart. A blink of an eye. A sound wave to travel on.
And I dreamed again, long dream of flying and ascending. There was light and darkness. There were voices and decisions. A goal was eluding my sight, but I kept on rising and traveling.
When I woke up all was forgotten.. For a while. And then it bubbled up through my awareness. And I remembered the flight, the feeling of moving thru space, to hover above the world, the feeling of freedom and detachment.
A great silence engulfed me then in reality, a well-being feeling, a peace of mind, body and soul.
I’m still bathing in that silence, still traveling the inner sea. A dark chant is following on my trail.
So there is hope.